I am afraid and fear you. I’m sorry you don’t believe how depressed and down I am, but I am. I’m caught in your hate, rage, anger and hostility with my boys future and my freedom in your hands and control. It is pure fear, which keeps me doing this. I am afraid of you and your temper and need to punish me. I am under intense duress, distress, despair and live in fear of you every second of everyday, since I answered your call. I am turning into an alcoholic and drowning in this. I am as down as a person can be. I fear and am afraid of you. Your hate knows no limits or bounds, none. I am afraid of you. That is what it is. I am afraid of you and live in fear of you and your hate every second of everyday.